I believe the past is the past, but over the last week I’ve finally understood what closure is. Last week, I saw my ex, not under good circumstances but the outcome mentally was exactly what I needed.
I was a mental wreck before the encounter, not because of seeing him, but for fear I would momentarily become the person I was 2 years ago when I last saw him. However, the outcome for me personally was more than I could have ever hoped for and I’ve finally been able to close that chapter of my life.
So here it goes….
Thank you for letting me go. I don’t regret the time we spent together, as if I did, my life may not be how it is now.
Thank you for teaching me about love, I have learnt that there are different types of love, and that true love was waiting for me.
Thank you for teaching me about happiness. Because, I’ve realised that I can be happier. You tried to make me smile, you did the things you were supposed to, but it was never enough for me. I’ve learnt that happiness doesn’t need to be tried, with the right person it just happens.
Thank you for the heartbreak. I know that sounds silly, but that was one of the best things you’ve ever done for me. It was tough at the time, but I’ve learnt that I cannot let people manipulate me or walk all over me. I’m a much stronger person than I ever was before I met you, and I thank you for that.
Thank you for treating me the way that you did. At the time, you couldn’t do anything wrong, but I’ve learnt that what we had was toxic and unhealthy. Thank you for teaching me about kindness and compassion.
Thank you for teaching me about the importance of friends and family. Since our break up, I put effort in to my relationships with the people I care about and I am closer to those that are important to me than I have ever been before.
Thank you for teaching me about honesty. Our relationship was full of lies and deceit. I’ve learnt that honesty and faithfulness is worth it. Secrets don’t exist if you share them. Thank you for making me more honest.
Thank you for not being my person, and for giving us both the opportunity to be with the right people.
Thank you for everything, I wouldn’t change a thing. You’ve taught me so much, and I’ve finally had the closure that I’ve needed. I look at you and see a stranger, a person I never actually knew and someone who has helped make me who I am.
We both have so many opportunities and life challenges ahead of us, in our separate lives, and I whole heartedly wish you happiness. Not the happiness that we had, but true, easy happiness.
Good luck with everything, and thank you.
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